I’ve had one friend contact me on Facebook wondering if I was still blogging. Glad to know Jennifer G. cares. The answer is yes. And no. I’ve had a falling out with this blog and after some deliberation, I’ll share it with you.
The idea behind 12 Resolutions was simple: make one goal per month and be accountable via public humiliation, a.k.a. this blog. I was off to a momentous start and had great responses to my month of ADD attack, but soon thereafter, I hit a slump. Either I was asking myself to do things that just couldn’t be completed in a month and thereby setting myself up for failure, or I wasn’t fully invested in the goals. Maybe both. The Huz recently shared with me some wisdom from the blog Zen Habits: goals set us up for failure. Here’s the link to the entry: http://zenhabits.net/no-goal/. It’s a fascinating idea. No goals. Not sure I can live quite that freely as I am a consummate control freak. That said, my goals this past year were definitely setting me up for failure.
So, now what?
The Huz and I are both on a path of change. We both got sick of things not working in our lives and thankfully, we both want to change the same things at the same time. For me that will mean a change in my blogging. I will probably check in from time to time on this blog, but I’m devising a new one for the near-future. I most likely will abandon Word Press as it doesn’t suit all of my social networking needs. I here Weebly is a good option. My future blogging will either concern living with ADD and parenting or will be a real-deal author page with links to my handful of clips, perhaps both. I will be meeting regularly with a friend and new acquaintance to discuss writing and blogging and expect these meetings to give me succor for the future project.
Thanks for reading my ruminations and cheering my successes. This feels freeing. I’m trying to do more in-the-moment actions rather than a planned outline of to-dos. I’ve been much happier adopting this approach and I have accomplished things that have piled up on the to-do list for months! I cleaned my car, got laundry under control, cleaned the house and decluttered the ground floor, etc. etc. It’s a cycle and won’t stay organized and clean for long, but I don’t feel like a victim to my house, my car, my kids, my dog. Next up, not feeling like a victim to my health and my finances.
It’s a process, one that probably will take longer than a month.
Well, to be fair, it was the public humiliation brought on by a certain second grader and her friends that led to the cleaning of the car….
Maybe there is something to being held accountable by a broader audience. It works for me, which is mostly why I keep my damned mouth shut.